For numerous reasons, Christoph Blocher is well known in Switzerland. Not only has he made a fortune estimated at USD 1.4 b, but also does he make waves with his politics. He had been a member of the Swiss parliament for 24 years before he was elected member of the Federal Council in 2003.
Blocher was not re-elected by the Swiss parliament in 2007, and has been in opposition to the Swiss government since. He is the party leader of SVP (Schweizerische Volks-Partei), but has never presided it.
Of particular interest are Blocher's principles of leadership which is often criticized as out-dated, conservative, and military. We have to admit, however, that Blocher's biography is proof of the opposite.
His maxims of life may be summarized in 10 points:
You should not primarily live from the company, but for the company - according to the policy: "The good man thinks of himself - at last!"
You should love your staff like yourself, so that you may make great demands on them - like on yourself.
You should always focus on the job, not on the human person - certainly not at the own human person.
You should not that, in good times, everybody wants to co-decide and push for responsible positions; in distress, you are alone. You know to bear this solitude.
You should know that, especially in times when team spirit is resounded throughout the land, that responsibility is indivisible.
You should bear the responsibility of your area of responsibility completely - for everything that happens in it, no matter whether "I am to blame for it or not". But you are not responsible for the entire world.
You should, in knowledge of one's own boundedness of force and resources, adhere to a shoemaker's entrepreneurial policy: "A cobbler should stick to his last."
You should behave as you are, with all your strengths and weaknesses - this is how you win the trust of people.
You should only say what you think, but not say everything that you think. What you say is what you should subsequently do, and you will not have to hold workshops on motivation.
You should acknowledge that life is not always bullish, but also bearish every now and then; but not always solely bearish, but again bullish. This is called a healthy faith in God.
No I can't forget this evening, Or your face as you were leaving. But I guess that's just the way the story goes. You always smile but in you eyes your sorrow shows. Yes it shows.
No I can't forget tomorrow, When I think of all my sorrow, When I had you there but then I let you go. And now it's only fair that I should let you know What you should know
I can't live, if living is without you. I can't give, I can't give any more. Can't live, if living is without you. Can't give, I can't give any more.
No I can't forget this evening, Or your face as you were leaving. But I guess that's just the way the story goes. You always smile but in you eyes your sorrow shows. Yes it shows.
I can't live, if living is without you. I can't give, I can't give any more. Can't live, if living is without you. Can't give, I can't give any more.
I can't live, if living is without you. I can't give, I can't give any more. Can't live, if living is without you. Can't give, I can't give any more.
This is really something. Richard Cohen has been on many TV shows with his unconventional views of how things work.
Transcript:
Jim McGreevy is back in the headlines this week. You will remember him; he’s the New Jersey governor who resigned when he revealed that he’s gay. He was also married to a woman at the time of that revelation. He has released excerpts of his memoir which will be published in September, and he described his life as a closeted gay man in politics as a slow march into hell. Now, to come out or not is a struggle for any gay person, but a few choose a third and very controversial option: therapy to make them straight. Deborah Feyerick has tonight’s eye opener.
If you’ve been watching the Sopranos on HBO, then you know the secret. Vito, a mob guy, married with kids, on the run, knowing he’ll be killed because he’s gay. It may sound like a plot line the reaction from Vito’s TV wife that there’s a cure is very real, and it’s a reaction many gay people and their families wonder about in the beginning. Is it possible to change, to not be gay?
There are groups who believe that it is possible. Some use religion, others more unusual techniques; more on that in a moment. But, whether it’s faith-based or secular, Dr. Jack Dresher of the American Psychiatric Association says that the practice of so-called conversion therapy is dangerous:
People who have done anything approximating a scientific report admit that the majority of people who tried to change their sexual orientation do not change.
And yet this man who tells us he was once gay claims to have helped hundreds of men like him. Richard Cohen, now married with three kids, is a leader in the so-called reparative therapy moment. With just more than a thousand members it’s not a particularly big movement, but because it’s so controversial and despised within the gay community it tends to get a lot of attention.
What you’re suggesting is, being gay is a switch, you can turn on or off.
People have a right to determine how they wish to live their life. If they choose to live a gay life – great; o.k. But, to say that I have to live as a gay man because I had those desires, that’s discrimination.
Cohen who had several boy-friends spent years in various kinds of therapy searching for answers. It wasn’t until he remembered being sexually abused by a man when he was a child that, what he calls, his conversion process began.
I knew it wasn’t for me, and I knew it in my gut I wasn’t born this way.
Cohen is an unlicensed therapist. He offers the theory that some sort of childhood trauma triggers homosexuality, that all it takes is figuring out what it is, healing from it, and moving on.
One of his clients is a 42 year old program analyst who we’ll call Rob. Because it’s such a sensitive subject he asked us to shield his identity. He began seeing Cohen three years ago after years of struggling with unwanted homosexual feelings.
I had a mother that basically committed emotional incest with me because they had a very bad marriage. She used me as her husband, a stand-in.
Cohen explains Rob’s same-sex attraction is typical of the men he treats: Cold, distant dad, overbearing mom, and overly sensitive kid. He showed us some of his unconventional techniques like touch therapy, in which he encourages Rob to seek out same-sex mentors to basically recreate a healthy father-son bond.
It’s nonsexual, it established like parent-child relationship. So he didn’t experience this growing up with his dad.
Rob, do you feel a sexual connection right now?
No, I don’t. I feel very save, and very competed, and it just feels wonderful.
Another technique: bioenergetics, designed to help clients release memories stored in the muscles, in this case, by hitting a pillow with a tennis racket.
I was angry at my mother, so I started to say, mom, mom, mom, mom, why did you do that to me?
So, is being gay a matter of nature or nurture? Doctors say they don’t know for sure. There is no gay gene, and no definitive scientific proof that one’s family or environment triggers same-sex attraction. That’s why mainstream mental health experts have had such a huge problem with Cohen and those like him who promote reparative therapy as legitimate.
It’s like this person has landed on earth from Mars and is doing things that the rest of us don’t believe in and that we don’t do. And it’s just unfortunate that there are people who are willing to except, because of the desperate homosexual feelings, to except these kinds of treatment.
48 year old Xavier Yager spent five years in reparative therapy.
It drove me to the edge of suicide several times.
He says it was so damaging it took years to recover.
From my farthest back recollection, I was always gay. I just, you know they always say it’s a choice to be gay, I chose to try to be straight, and I found that it was unattainable.
Yager is now happily gay. Rob is also happy, but for the opposite reason.
I know what I’m experiencing; I know the freedom that I feel now. And, as a result of the work, I don’t have same-sex attractions anymore.
He’s even been chatting with women on the Internet, hoping to line up dates.
Do you see yourself now as an ex-gay?
I see myself now as a much happier person.
A person who seems to have found his own inner peace.
Since January 1, 2008 smoking bans have become effective in large parts of Germany - to former Chancellor Helmut Schmidt and his wife Loki it's all hallow words. The couple merrily continues to chuff - and is even handed an ashtray.
Throughout Germany, smokers may groan about the numerous bans of smoking which are effective in many federal states - not so for former Chancellor Schmidt and his wife Loki. The couple does not allow anybody to deprive them from their smoking pleasure: like at the traditional New Year's punch in the Hamburg theater "Winterhuder Fährhaus" on January 6. They were even handed an ashtray.
The couple does not even think about stopping to smoke. Loki Schmit told a newspaper that even their doctor discouraged them from quitting. The change would be too straneous for their bodies. The 88 year old lady added that she had started smoking when at age 10.
If you write number «9» too often in your tax return you will arouse suspicion.
Common sense is often a difficult thing to deal with – especially in math. We should think that stock prices should all start with a 1 as with 2, or with any other number. At a probability of 11.1%, each of the nine numbers should be the first digit of a stock price. In addition, we would assume that no single number is preferred in population figures, and in physical or mathematical constants. As a matter of fact, in many numbers that have social or physical meaning, however, numbers are not equally distributed.
The first person who made this observation was Simon Newcomb, a Canadian physicist who found the first numbers in log tables to be worn more than those in the back. He concluded that his colleagues dealt more often with numbers that start with 1, or 2 than those beginning with 8, or 9. The seemingly fanciful assumption sank into oblivion, and was only rediscovered in 1938 by a physicist named Fran Benford.
Benford, however, went one step further. He tested his assumption with data from different subject areas – results of the American baseball league, atom weights of chemical elements, experimental data in scientific journals, and numbers in articles of «Reader’s Digest» magazine. Permanently he got the same result: While more than 30% of numbers start with 1, merely 5% start with 9.
You will come to the same conclusion when analyzing closing prices of stocks at the New York Stock Exchange. 33.3% of stocks have a value that starts with the number 1. Only 16.4% of securities start with a 2, and only 6.1% with 9.Incidentally, this phenomenon does not depend on currencies. You would find the same distribution of numbers when calculating with Euros, Yen, or Swiss Francs.
Benford’s distribution of numbers is everywhere. After a census of population in 1990, it turned out that the population figures of 3000 counties obeyed it, as well as the length of rivers, and numerical data in scientific papers.
The distribution remained curiosity until conclusive evidence had been found. It was only in 1995 that the mystery was solved by a Theodore Hill, a professor of mathematics at the Georgia Institute of Technology. His complete demonstration would be a bit of a stretch, but the phenomenon may be illustrated as follows: Suppose a stock is valued at USD 100.00 and appreciates at a 10% annual rate. For 88 months – until its value reaches USD 200 – the stock price begins with 1.The stock only has a leading 2 for 52 months until the stock climbs to USD 300. The stock price will start with 9 only for 12 months because this is how long it takes it to rise from 900 to 1000. Again it will take 88 months for the stock to reach the 2000 mark, and during this period of time the stock price will begin with 1.This roughly complies to the distribution Benford observed. In mathematic terms, it is a logarithmic distribution. The frequency f of a digit d (1,2, … 9) is calculated by the formula f = log (1 + 1/d).For d = 1 we get f = 30.1%, for d = 9 we get f = 4.6%.
After this phenomenon was taken from a mere curiosity to the level of a mathematical law, professionals started to look for practical applications. A professor of accounting subjected 170 000 tax returns to a deeper analysis. He examined whether the numbers in the tax forms obeyed the Bredford distribution. Not only did they obey it, and this is how he was able to detect erroneous tax returns. Since that time, American tax authorities have used this approach in order to identify tax fraud. And computer scientists want to avail the fact that small numbers occur more often as the first digit by adapting a computer’s architecture.
by Joni Mitchell The cartoon music video is from the 1970s.
They paved paradise And put up a parking lot With a pink hotel, a boutique And a swinging hot spot Don't it always seem to go That you don't know what you've got Till it's gone They paved paradise And put up a parking lot
They took all the trees Put em in a tree museum And they charged the people A dollar and a half just to see em Don't it always seem to go That you don't know what you've got Till it's gone They paved paradise And put up a parking lot
Hey farmer farmer Put away that d.d.t. now Give me spots on my apples But leave me the birds and the bees Please! Don't it always seem to go That you don't know what you've got Till it's gone They paved paradise And put up a parking lot
Late last night I heard the screen door slam And a big yellow taxi Took away my old man Don't it always seem to go That you don't know what you've got Till it's gone They paved paradise And put up a parking lot
I'm scared So afraid to show I care Will he think me weak If I tremble when I speak Oooh What if There's another one he's thinking of Maybe he's in love I'd feel like a fool Life can be so cruel I don't know what to do I've been there With my heart out in my hand But what you must understand You can't let the chance To love him pass you by
Tell him Tell him that the sun and moon Rise in his eyes Reach out to him And whisper Tender words so soft and sweet Hold him close to feel his heart beat Love will be the gift you give yourself
Touch him (Oooh) With the gentleness you feel inside (I feel it) Your love can't be denied The truth will set you free You'll have what's meant to be All in time you'll see
Oooh I love him (Then show him) Of that much I can be sure (Hold him close to you) I don't think I could endure If I let him walk away When I have so much to say
Tell him Tell him that the sun and moon Rise in his eyes Reach out to him And whisper Tender words so soft and sweet Hold him close to feel his heart beat Love will be the gift you give yourself
Love is light that surely glows In the hearts of those who know It's a steady flame that grows Feed the fire with all the passion you can show Tonight love will assume its place This memory time cannot erase Your faith will lead love where it has to go
Tell him Tell him that the sun and moon Rise in his eyes Reach out to him And whisper Whisper words so soft and sweet Hold him close to feel his heart beat Love will be the gift you give yourself
There are two ways of looking at the world – through faith and superstition or through the rigours of logic, observation and evidence – in other words, through reason. Reason and a respect for evidence are precious commodities, the source of human progress and our safeguard against fundamentalists and those who profit from obscuring the truth.
Yet, today, society appears to be retreating from reason.
Apparently harmless but utterly irrational belief systems from astrology to New Age mysticism, clairvoyance to alternative health remedies are booming.
Slaves to Superstition
Richard Dawkins confronts what he sees as an epidemic of irrational, superstitious thinking...
He explains the dangers the pick and mix of knowledge and nonsense poses in the internet age, and passionately re-states the case for reason and science.
Prof Richard Dawkins tackles the epidemic of irrational, superstitious thinking which is blotting the light of logic and evidence. After garnering tips on psychics' entirely earthly trade secrets from the illusionist Derren Brown, Dawkins attends a seance and confronts the medium. Time and again, the interviewees appeal to personal revelation or second-hand anecdote to justify their belief.
A German television show named "The Next Uri Geller" currently rocks the boat. Performer Uri Geller who claims to have psychic powers is looking for his successor.
Where once there was reason, now there is confusion.
While some of the candidates' tricks have been proven counterfeit shortly after the first episode was aired, Uri Geller himself has repeatedly been exposed.
Nonetheless, many people believe in Uri Geller's power. It seems apposite to ask whether they wish to believe that some human beings truly have psychic powers?
Have a look at the first part of how James Randi exposes all the popular tricks and hocus-pocus of Uri Geller:
Richard Dawkins is best known from his controversial best selling books like "The God Delusion," and "The Selfish Gene." He is a reknowned ethologist, evolutionary biologist, and popular science writer. Dawkins is well known for his views on religion as he is an outspoken antireligionist, atheist, secular humanist, and sceptic.
In his talk, entitled "Queerer Than We Can Suppose: The Strangeness of Science", which he delivered at the TED Conferences in 2006, he suggests that the true nature of the universe eludes us, because the human mind evolved only to understand the "middle-sized" world we can observe.
He argues that science, as opposed to technology, does violence to common sense: Every time you drink a glass of water the odds are that you will imbibe at least one molecule that passed through the bladder of Oliver Cromwell. The number of molecules per glass full is hugely greater than the number of glass fulls, or bladders fulls, in the world.
Dawkins further outlines that there are most probably more things in heaven and earth than are dreamed of or can be dreamed of in any philosophy, and wonder whether there are things about the universe that will be forever beyond our grasp, but not beyond the grasp of some superior intelligence.
So far, science has thaught us, against all intuition, that apparently solid things like cristals and rocks are really almost entirely composed of empty space.
Please, have a look at Dawkin's talk yourself to learn what science can mean to our daily lives:
She wants to say, everything’s gonna turn out the right way. She believes all of this was meant to be. A margarita, a little walking. She did a little too much talking, then she told me about her STD.
I’m running away, don’t want to stay. Sorry if it seems kinda mean. But my balls mean so much to me. You got an STD, girl, no it’s just not for me, Girl no. A clean bill of health is all mine-a I don’t want to touch your, Dirty Vagina.
I’m gonna lock my door. Never want to see your panties on my floor Close your legs watch some Star Trek. Just don’t forget to take your Valtrex I’m in my Corolla and I’m flooring the gas Cause I think you need a little Neosporin for your ass. Looks like you sat on Papa John’s Pizza.
Or your bush was attacked by a cheetah. I know you just wanna be a good lover But like R.L. Stine you got Goosebumps on your cover. Your cookie must burning like an Easy-bake Oven. Cause, Girl, I smell something.
I’m running away, don’t want to stay. Sorry if it seems kinda mean. But my balls mean so much to me. You got an STD, Girl. No it’s not for me, Girl, no. A clean bill of health is all mine-a, I don’t wanna smell your, Stinky Vagina.
You tell me it burns when you pee, but you still think you got a clean pussy. I don’t believe it. It can't be true. You gotta find somebody else to screw. You want sex, I got a better proposal. How bout I stick my penis in a garbage disposal. I’m grabbing my jeans. Hitting the road. Gonna find somewhere else to blow my load.
Don’t get me wrong, Girl, I think you’re a cool chick. But I don’t want you playing with my hockey stick. Cause it looks like your crotch caught on fire, and the doctor tried to put it out with a brick. And that makes me nervous, just a little bit.
I’m running away, don’t wanna stay, You got more crabs than San Francisco bay. More cheese than a high school cafeteria tray, on macaroni day. Now if you’re thinking, there’s nothing she can do. Bullshit, I’ve got some advice for you.
Trojan, Durex, Comet, Windex Can of Pledge with the lemony scent. I like that best. Prescription drugs. A bath tub plug, Automatic Shower Cleaner with the Scrubbing Bubbles cause I think we all agree you tub has got a little trouble. Make it double. Snow blower, lawn mower, Vietnam flame thrower. Bubble gum, Shotgun. fuck it. Call a bombing run.
Maybe you can stuff it with some babies breath, Then it won’t smell like you gave birth, to death. Think that was all that’s left, let me check…yup. Hope you’re not upset.
What would the world look like if the «e-» part wasn't there? Countless people cannot imagine what their lives would be without the Internet. And every so often, we take fron granted what has only existed for a comparatively short amount of time.
The Internet had its breakthrough only in 1989 when the WWW Hypertext System was introduced by Sir Tim Berners-Lee. Even six years later, in 1995, a mere 25 million people worldwide had access to the Internet. The number of users increased to 840 million users in 2002, and to over 1.262 billion in 2007. While currently 70.9% of the population of Northern America access the Internet, only 19.1% of the world population do.
The main social and economic implication is a drastic change in the way we communicate with each other. While information is ever more available at our fingertips, information is democratized.
There is no doubt that the Internet turns our world into a global village.
Marco Cribari (* July 7, 1985) is a Swiss athlete. The sprinter runs for LC Zurich. At the European athletics championships of 2006 he took part in the 200 meter race and is a member of the Swiss 4 x 100 meters relay. In 2007, he ranked fifth at the European U23 championships and became Swiss champion in the 100 meter race. At the Wold athletics championships in 2007 he ranked 25th in the 200 meter race.
Until Cribari was 18 he played soccer and then decided to focus on athletic sports. He has been a medical student since 2006.
Personal best performances 100 meter race: 10.35 seconds, July 28, 2007 in Lausanne 200 meter race: 20.54 seconds, June 9, 2007 in Geneva 60 meter race (Halle): 6.87 seconds, February 17, 2007 in St.Gallen
This is, by far, my most favorite of Rosie O’Donnell’s Jahero movies. Jahero, you may be wondering, is a nickname for the morning video blogs posted by Rosie O'Donnell on her website during part of her tenure on The View. The name was created using the first two charachters of the participants Janette Barber (O'Donnel's writer and produer), Helene Macaulay (make-up artist who is in charge of O'Donnell's hair and make-up), and Rosie O'Donnell.
This particular video is especially interesting because it outlines several difficulties Rosie faced when on The View.
Transcript: ('Better Be Good To Me' by Tina Turner is playing in the background, sung parts are desplayed in italics)
Good morning, bloggers.
A prisoner of your love, entangled in your web.
Helene: Is today a double feature? I don't know
Hot whispers in the night. I'm captured by your spell.
My favorite part, right here
Oh yes Im touched by this show of emotion? Should I be fractured by your lack of devotion? Should I, hm, should I?
No, no, you better be good to me. That's how its gotta be now. 'Cause I don't have no use for what you loosely call the truth. You better be good to me.
This is for the whole FOX network Helene: We're very depressed we're leaving The View. We liked it Yeah, it was fun. Helene: I could've done another year Yeah But we're not sad, people.
We dont need to fight. We could stand face to face and you present your case
This is about Donald.
I know you keep telling me that you love me, and I really do wanna believe. But did you think I'd just accept you in blind faith? Oh sure babe, anything to please you. You better be good to me. Thats how its gotta be now.
Come on in Janette, isn't this funny?
'Cause I dont have no use ... for your over loaded lies
Alright. Somehow I just felt Tina Turner was really a good way to start off today. Are you all well?
Helene and Janette: Yeah, we're good.
OK, everybody's good. This is our second blog of the day, the first one was utterly boring.
Background: Here's me. (Confetti gun shoots off.)
Confetti! That scared the hell out of me, I thought the light bulb broke. Isn't that appealing?
Helen: Right now I have Tinnitus in both ears. Excuse me. Get out of my way!
Alright. A lot of the blog entries are the same. "We're sorry you're leaving, we're sorry you're leaving, we're sorry you're leaving."
"If I was stranded on a desert island," Lisa said "what five CDs should I bring?"
I think Tina Turner.
I can't feel, I surely cannot see. Why can't you be good to me? If it's not real I do not wish to see.
That's why I didn't watch all the crap last night.
Helene: I didn't watch any of it.
Janette: I didn't watch any either.
Helene: I don't watch television.
good to me ... Why can't you be good to me?
Here comes the cow bell. Ready? It's got a big solo coming up. Here we go. And now, cow bell every body. Oh, it's not there.
for your overloaded lies
I love Tina Turner.
for your overloaded lies ... I don't have no use for what you loosely call the truth, you better be good to me
I think that's my new theme song. 'You better be good to me.'
Alright, ladies. We're gonna do a few quick questions for the people.
"FOX twist the news about as much as ABC, CBS, ... . Oh, that's right their news leaves just to the left as always. That's why you applaud them. Keep applauding while FOX will dominate the ratings."
Peggy, I don't know what to tell you. If you wanna go to, you know, eat fast food every day even though you know it's not healthy for you, abd it's not really good to do, go ahead. FOX News I don't have no use for what you loosely call the truth. I'm quoting Tina Turner.
"A major bummer, where will I get my broadway fix as well as my mind jump-started by your provocative comments. Don't do a game show! I wanna hear what you have to say."
Oh Regi, thank you Regi. Alright, go ahead Janette, here take Gary.
Janette: Ok Gary. "If people focused on the good non-sexual qualities of the gay community they would feel different. Why do people always think of the sexual side? Thinking of Mary Lou having sex makes me want to puke."
Who is Mary Lou? Neither do I.
Janette: But see, here's my thing, I don't wanna think about anybody having sex, quite honestly nobody.
Helene: I'd like to think about myself having sex.
I'd like Helene, too, have sex. So maybe she could, ... yeah calm down a little.
Alright "It's amazing how these shows with experts boost their own ratings talking about one person leaving a talk show. Not Gonzalez, not Tilman, not Iraq. Over 6 shows."
I think it was more than that, Barbara, but you get the point.
Helene: "Where can I see the OutFOXed documentary?" Netflix. You can see almost anything on Netflix.
Go to Netflix. I'm a big supporter of Netflix. And get that OutFOXed documentary so that you can understand what it is you're watching there. You're watching a purposeful slant for a financial game of a couple of very rich, sick people.
Helene: While you're at it, you should rent 'Smartest Guys In The Room,' Enron. Smartest Guys. And I think that's gonna be ob PBS this week in New York, anyway.
Yes, and Bill Moyer's bravo series on PBS. Bill Moyer, I'm gonna send you something, I don't know what.
Janette: "What's your view on global warming," Tiffany wants to know.
It's real, and it's happening, and no matter what anyone tells you folks, we're in big trouble.
Janette: Yeah, and don't invest in a lot of sweaters.
Helene: Invest in real estate in Northern Canada.
"Is it weird being famous?" says Allan. Yes it is, and I've written a book about it, and it's called 'Celebrity Detox,' and it comes out on September, 18.
Janette: Cindy has "Jahero, thanks for showing the world: women can be sexy, and smart, and funny all in one. Ro, will miss you. But no, we'll see you still. Hope stories really open people's eyes to spin, spin, versus truth." Well, that's always show biz. That's actually another word for showbiz.
"All this talk about you leaving the view as though we'll never see you again." Tracy, you're totally right, and I know I will. And you're correct. "Do you think this is what you call a distraction?" Yes. "Another 9 troups killed in Iraq." I hate when they call them troups, because you know what a troup is? A human being! 9 troup, no, 9 people, 9 sons and daughters, 9 families destroyed, for what is my question, for what.
Alright, take one, Janette.
Janette: OK, "How about a movie, I loved you in a leage of their own. It's gonna be pretty boring without you, where am I gonna find my morning smile now?" Right here.
Yeah, we'll still do the blog. Cindy: "What a journey you're on, awesome" I agree, life's a journey, honey, there is no destination.
"The responder's story saddened me so" You have no idea, wait until you see it tomorrow, it literally, it's hard to explain. "You will be a voice for them." I hope to God I will be. "I watched American Idol last night, our reponders need a show like that" Yes, they do, Dana.
Alright, we're at 8 minutes, and oh, we got flowers from who? Oh, you two little cute boys. Men. Celebrating their 10th anniversary, I sent them to see a show.
Alright, we're at 8 minutes, we're gonna go now. OK, Helene, take one, they miss you.
Helene: "Canada loves our neighbor's ... . You speak for so many Canadians with your view on the Bush administration. We're so going to miss your view up here. God bless and come up visit us. aight."
Aight, I will.
Helene: Those Canadians say that all the time.
I love the Canadians, aight. "Rosie, I don't swear, but for F sake will these idiots of society shut up and leave you alone? The road is rocky for those who make a difference. Rock on! D. T. and Bush, fire them both!"
Let's just end this blog the same way we began it, ok? With what? A little Tina Turner. Take it Tina, take us home. ... Here we go. Oh, I love the song. Two ... three ... four.
Part 1: Während däm dir heit glacht hani dehei mini Beats gmacht Ha mir gseit es isch besser dehei z'blibe um Texste z'schribe Es het sech glohnt und jetz stahni da, jetz stahni uf dr Bühni aso los dä Shit a Chum i läbe Hip Hop und das sit Johre Während däm dir tröimed bini hingedürre am score Dir heits nid gmerkt, dir heits nid begriffe, dir heit wahrschinlech dänkt i machi nüt wüu i kiffe Aber fautsch dänkt und fautsch überleit, i hoffe nach däm Track isch d'Nachricht ändlech übertreit Jetz isch fertig luschtig, man jetz bini da Fertig luschtig, i blibe no vili Jahr
Refrain: Merk dr das Shit schnurre bringt nüt Merk dr das Ig chumme ging zrüg Merk dr das U los lo keiä, es isch gschider, man du wiesch genau i chume immer wieder
Part 2: Dir heit mi gseh und nech säuber es Biud gmacht Sit jetz gschockt denn i ha verdammt viu gmacht viu gschafft, viu grafft, viu pafft I ha no viu Zit, no viu Chraft Mi weiss i ha no viu Saft No viu Energie, no viu Motivation Aso tritti jede Tag wieder in Aktion Dir heit mrs nie gönnt Am liebschte währed dr zu mir cho und hättet au mini Texste vrbrönnt Dir heit viu chönne lache, heit nech viu amüsiert I bi ungedürre, ha aber z'Läbe kapiert Viu meine immerno i sig e Absturz Aber uf die Vorurteil gibi doch e Fuck druf Dir sit scho ging vo euem Ich uf dr Flucht Verzeuet Gschichte und bewiset so numme Iversucht Jetz isch schluss, i hoffe dass drs merked öii Fautsch-Ussage mache mi no stercher
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Phill: I gib e Figg druf I gib e Figg druf I gib e Figg druf Nim e Hit vo mim Stick u gib e Figg druf
Part 3: Immerno z'gliche Smile, immerno dr glich Style Immerno z'gliche Läbe, numme nie dr glich Rhyme D'Melodie vor Ewigkeit D'Wuet womi treit I gseh dä ganz Shit wo nach Bluet schreit Aber i blibe mir tröi, blibe zueversichtlech Ha wenigschtens no Fröid am Beatä und am Dichtä Das isch aus wo mir blibt, das cha mir niemer näh So vertröimi mini Zit sibä Täg ir Wuchä Chasch mi liebe oder hasse I wirde ni verblasse I bi i und bruche ke Maske I verfoge mi Plan, chume vouer Elan Gloube nüm a Gott, gloube nid a Satan Die exischtiere höchschtens i dir säuber I gloube jetz uf au Fäu a mi säuber
Have a look at the stunning firework we saw on the lake of Zurich:
The new year started almost a week ago, and only now is there a new post about my life; my soul life, and my pursuit of finding someone and something I truly love, truly love to do.
My inner desire of a major change is constantly increasing. Today it even leaves me sleepless, and makes me post early in the morning.
There are so many reasons why this is: I feel unhappy with my current college life, and do not exactly know why. I keep wondering whether it is my 'apartment situation' which includes Ben, a guy who I once thought was one of my best friends, and now I only feel betrayed by. At this time, everytime he's around I only feel rivalry on an utmost personal level, I perceive the world to be an evil place. Does it take only one person to give me this feeling? Nevertheless, I repeatedly feel he won't understand what I say, what I mean to say, and how I mean it.
Isn't life about doing what you really want to do? If you really, really want to? I think so. This is what I tell everybody who believes I am gay. "Don't you think I would have come out of the closet years ago if I wanted to live this lifestyle?" I don't think anybody wants to hide these days, or has to. So what would they think if they ask me? That I am not thinking?
If someone has the choice I truly believe they should do what they like best. This is the way I grew up.
I have always dreamt of spending some time in the States, somewhere on the West coast. (Not only because my dermatologist advised me to often go to warm and sunny places with a beach and salt water.)
From what I know the culture of people on the West coast is more open-minded, maybe more relaxed than what I perceive my present environment to be.
I keep wondering, why do I not just do it? Look for some job, rent an apartment, and get a ticket to San Diego; and off I go? I do not know.
Certainly, Rachelle is something I cannot let go, something I haven't been able to let go for a long time. Even though it seems so obvious. I used to belive (and still do) that she moved into the house next to where I live. Inspite of that, I wrote letters to her, made her presents, contacted her in so many ways. And there would be no answer to what I really said. No answer at all. What other explanation is there that she either does not actually live there, or is not interested at all? I'm coming to the conclusion there is none.
Why should I wait for something that is never going to happen? I might as well strive for my childhood dream and spend a couple of years somewhere abroad. I could take a sort of a 'vacation' from my life her. Make up for my wild teenage years I think I'm missing.
Life is never straightforward, right? I cannot plan everything. My life cannot ride like it's on rails. Nobody's life does.
I will have to fight for what I want to do. And, first things first, find a way to get out of the Swiss Armed Forces.
